and i said i would keep my blog up to date. PSSSH !
i have been up to NOTHING lately. and by nothing i really do mean it.
... what makes it worse is i've been thinking about EVERYTHING and it's driving me insane.
ever since Christmas Day the thought of moving back to New Zealand is always at the back of my mind... i miss my friends so much especially Jade and Reezan. Reezan keeps bugging me on when im going to visit and saying he misses me, and lately i've realised how much i really miss him too.
The choice has always been easy for me. I'm too use to life in Australia and the thought of moving away from the friends i have made would shatter my heart and i don't think i could go through all that again. BUT moving back would mean i get to be with those kiwis i miss so much, being able to be away from my parents because i cant stand the shit they put me through, and a good uni instead of this Box Hill Tafe bullshit.
MY PARENTS
are pushing me to my extremes now. We haven't had any major arguments lately and i haven't gone out just to keep them happy, yet they're not. They're said NO every time i ask to go out and i haven't seen my friends for 2 fucking weeks. Next time they piss me off I'm walking out, there so much i can take. This isn't home anymore - it's a prison.
MY FRIENDS
are amazing though :)
They've kept me from going completely mad these couple of days and i don't know what I'd do without them.
Special thanks these people in my life who keep me grounded -
Jade K. -
i miss her more than anything. She's the Best Friend, and apparently verrryy kinky LOL ! her nickname the gobbler is probably very fitting although she wont admit it ;) HAHAHA I'm sorry, but its hilarious.
Cattie U.
She's the only one i feel comfortable being completely open to as well as a blast to hang around. I share EVERYTHING with her and she's perfect in ever way. I love her to death and beyond because Cattie is that amazing. She says I'm pretty much her best friend and I'm 2nd in her life after Vincent and knowing that can keep a smile on my face anyday :)
Vincent P.
My new found friend. He thinks knows a wayyy too much about me but i like it. He's such a sweetheart and I'm glad to have him in my life.
Alex Goat.
omg i missed that kid so much when he was gone. If he ever decided to leave me again for 5 weeks i will lose my sanity ! He's such a babe. He's always there for me when i need him, and such a genuine person which is rare these days. i would be lost without that Goatface =P Bumming buddies for lifeeee !
Mel M. aka Koooddiiieeesss
She's my opposite, and my everything. We have NOTHING in common yet she get along so well. When everyone else fails she's the one that's always there through thick and thin. I love her uniqueness because there too much of that same old, same old. There's nobody like my kuddies, so nobody could ever replace her in my life. i miss you already, come back !
Fiona T.
the cutie of our group. she's amazing, gorgeous, and the person i turn to for dnm's. i love how you listen to me babble on, and how adorable you get when you talk about the boy ;)
we need a catch up sesh soon hun! x
Chaminda K.
the beautiful chocolate man HAHAHAH. but seriously, he's awesome. Every time he's around it's always more fun, and all my eggs disappear... but i can't complain :) - at least its only my kitchen egg's and not my TV's ! jj !
Isaac C.
This guy is awesome in every way. Without you I'd just be a even more hopeless sheep, there's never a dull day with you around ! xx
i have been up to NOTHING lately. and by nothing i really do mean it.
... what makes it worse is i've been thinking about EVERYTHING and it's driving me insane.
ever since Christmas Day the thought of moving back to New Zealand is always at the back of my mind... i miss my friends so much especially Jade and Reezan. Reezan keeps bugging me on when im going to visit and saying he misses me, and lately i've realised how much i really miss him too.
The choice has always been easy for me. I'm too use to life in Australia and the thought of moving away from the friends i have made would shatter my heart and i don't think i could go through all that again. BUT moving back would mean i get to be with those kiwis i miss so much, being able to be away from my parents because i cant stand the shit they put me through, and a good uni instead of this Box Hill Tafe bullshit.
MY PARENTS
are pushing me to my extremes now. We haven't had any major arguments lately and i haven't gone out just to keep them happy, yet they're not. They're said NO every time i ask to go out and i haven't seen my friends for 2 fucking weeks. Next time they piss me off I'm walking out, there so much i can take. This isn't home anymore - it's a prison.
MY FRIENDS
are amazing though :)
They've kept me from going completely mad these couple of days and i don't know what I'd do without them.
Special thanks these people in my life who keep me grounded -
Jade K. -
i miss her more than anything. She's the Best Friend, and apparently verrryy kinky LOL ! her nickname the gobbler is probably very fitting although she wont admit it ;) HAHAHA I'm sorry, but its hilarious.
Cattie U.
She's the only one i feel comfortable being completely open to as well as a blast to hang around. I share EVERYTHING with her and she's perfect in ever way. I love her to death and beyond because Cattie is that amazing. She says I'm pretty much her best friend and I'm 2nd in her life after Vincent and knowing that can keep a smile on my face anyday :)
Vincent P.
My new found friend. He thinks knows a wayyy too much about me but i like it. He's such a sweetheart and I'm glad to have him in my life.
Alex Goat.
omg i missed that kid so much when he was gone. If he ever decided to leave me again for 5 weeks i will lose my sanity ! He's such a babe. He's always there for me when i need him, and such a genuine person which is rare these days. i would be lost without that Goatface =P Bumming buddies for lifeeee !
Mel M. aka Koooddiiieeesss
She's my opposite, and my everything. We have NOTHING in common yet she get along so well. When everyone else fails she's the one that's always there through thick and thin. I love her uniqueness because there too much of that same old, same old. There's nobody like my kuddies, so nobody could ever replace her in my life. i miss you already, come back !
Fiona T.
the cutie of our group. she's amazing, gorgeous, and the person i turn to for dnm's. i love how you listen to me babble on, and how adorable you get when you talk about the boy ;)
we need a catch up sesh soon hun! x
Chaminda K.
the beautiful chocolate man HAHAHAH. but seriously, he's awesome. Every time he's around it's always more fun, and all my eggs disappear... but i can't complain :) - at least its only my kitchen egg's and not my TV's ! jj !
Isaac C.
This guy is awesome in every way. Without you I'd just be a even more hopeless sheep, there's never a dull day with you around ! xx
** P.S. i realise my 'i' are all not in capitals but thats how i roll. Plus, i'll be too busy doing your mum to change it now :)
Awwwm I love you so much babe!
ReplyDeleteI can't wait for Sunday :) Shall be a good day! and it'll be 29 degrees yayayay not this glum weather.
I miss you.
xx